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It's hard to stay ahead of them and still have a reasonable amount of ...well "Life". I will be glad to get a month or two to wind down. Just chill...I don't know if it will work that way, I know it wouldn't hurt my feelings any.
Somehow we seem to put our worth in the job we do, how busy we are and how much or how little we sacrifice to make money. I know I have said it before: The oilfield life is hard for others to understand. The time away from family and friends...heck I can't even say I have many friends outside of work. My family understands because I grew up with a father that was away from home just as much if not more than I am now. New family not so much. It is very hard on relationships, and its hard for those that grew up in a 9 to 5 home to have to say goodbye for weeks or even months at a time. Its foreign, its alien.
I had a milestone birthday this past summer and some questions I have been secretly asking myself have been on my mind more than ever. Is this worth it? Am I greedy? Is there any life change I can make that will allow a "normal" life? Can the oilpatch survive and do my job without me? I say that last one tongue in cheek because I already know the answer. That's what it all boils down to though isn't it? If I say no to the next job...I want to take a month off, I want scheduled days off, I want to be able to plan a better life...won't I just get replaced and loose my place in line by some other schmuck who will do it better and with less demands than I would make?
I hate... I absolutely loath some of the people that do the same work as I do. They are greedy...and egotistical. They will stab you in the back to get a step ahead. They will slag your work. Whiny small minded bitches that like to brag.
I hate that I am becoming that.
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